I’ve been recording series 2 of the Bereaved Parents’ Club podcast. In the first episode, I chatted with another bereaved mum who also lost her child in 2018. We feel we’re at a similar ‘stage’ with our grief, being able to function healthily most of the time. We talked about ‘phase two’ of grief –Continue reading “Tides”
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Second Thoughts
[I wrote this on Tuesday 21st May but couldn’t bring myself to post it until today.] My lovely dog Maggie was put to sleep yesterday. She was about 14 years old. She loved and trusted me completely. I loved her unconditionally. She was my baby girl, Miss Maggie Moo, Maggie T Dog, Da Magsta. IContinue reading “Second Thoughts”
Bereaved Parents’ Club
This time last year I was getting ready to start the new job I so badly failed at. But, one of the brilliant things that came out of it was meeting Lauren. I’d already had the fortune to meet Tracy, another mum bereaved of her only son. Both of us would rather we’d never met,Continue reading “Bereaved Parents’ Club”
Fanfare, trumpets*, general excitement…
This is just a very short blog to reach those of you who might not see me plastering the news everywhere else today. Midowed is really happening and I am delighted to reveal the cover design! You can even see it on the Zsa Zsa Publishing website AND pre-order it! It’s right here! Yes, theContinue reading “Fanfare, trumpets*, general excitement…”
A Brief Attempt at Normal
‘I was looking for a job and then I found a job, and heaven knows I’m miserable now’ I was looking for a job because my current role as a freelance, self-employed, Disabled Students’ Allowance Assessor is going to change in 2024. A new model for managing the assessments is being implemented by the governmentContinue reading “A Brief Attempt at Normal”
The Ghosts of Christmases Past, Present, and Future.
‘Merry Christmas, Nanny!’ Dan flung open the back door and strode into the kitchen, stamping his feet on the mat to shake off the snow from his black Converse hi-tops. ‘Ooh, you silly sod you nearly made me drop the spuds.’ My mum, in her festive red dress and white cardy, tipped a pan ofContinue reading “The Ghosts of Christmases Past, Present, and Future.”
Everything reminds me of you
In the newly decorated and reorganised home office, I hear a beep beep from one of the boxes. ‘Oh my god Dan, your watch is still beeping for some random alarm you set.’ And, in a blink, you are next to me, laughing too. ‘Hur-hur-hur, Can’t believe it, it’s how old? I think I gotContinue reading “Everything reminds me of you”
No More Nails
There are handmade boxes of drill bits; masonry, wood, metal. Small cardboard boxes of screws in varying lengths. Large toolboxes with pliers and spanners and hammers. The garage is a trove for the D-I-Y hobbyist. It’s now my job to sort it out and find new homes for all these items. Dad was always buildingContinue reading “No More Nails”
Bubblegum and Tattoos
They have bags of ‘tennis ball’ bubble gum at the Go Local shop just along from where my dad lives. They look like the little knobbly bubblies from an old bubbly machine. I loved those. 2p (or 5p. 70s Inflation hit us kids hard in our pocket money stakes) and you got this rock hardContinue reading “Bubblegum and Tattoos”
I Definitely Don’t Believe in God
I definitely don’t believe in God. Not the ‘earth created in seven days, Adam and Eve’ stuff that some people seem to be able to swallow whole, as fact. I don’t believe a singular being or even a group of deities made this planet and everything on it. I’m firmly on the side of scienceContinue reading “I Definitely Don’t Believe in God”
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