child loss – Midowed

Tides

I’ve been recording series 2 of the Bereaved Parents’ Club podcast. In the first episode, I chatted with another bereaved mum who also lost her child in 2018. We feel we’re at a similar ‘stage’ with our grief, being able to function healthily most of the time. We talked about ‘phase two’ of grief –Continue reading “Tides”

Bereaved Parents’ Club

This time last year I was getting ready to start the new job I so badly failed at. But, one of the brilliant things that came out of it was meeting Lauren. I’d already had the fortune to meet Tracy, another mum bereaved of her only son. Both of us would rather we’d never met,Continue reading “Bereaved Parents’ Club”

Everything reminds me of you

In the newly decorated and reorganised home office, I hear a beep beep from one of the boxes. ‘Oh my god Dan, your watch is still beeping for some random alarm you set.’ And, in a blink, you are next to me, laughing too. ‘Hur-hur-hur, Can’t believe it, it’s how old? I think I gotContinue reading “Everything reminds me of you”

Christmas is Coming

The only reason that Christmas, and for that matter, birthdays, are so loaded with emotion and so difficult to manage is because they don’t happen every day. If we lived with a year of Christmas days, the power would soon dissipate, and it’d become so ordinary that we wouldn’t cry every time we saw THATContinue reading “Christmas is Coming”

Maggie and Me

I have been back from Llanbedrog for over a month now. I miss the beach mostly. The static crackle of the surf pushing and pulling the shale on the shoreline. The suck and hiss, back and forth. The wind rushing along the coast and the crash and return of the waves fills my senses. IContinue reading “Maggie and Me”

Sunshine and Rainbows

My Twitter cover picture, for quite some time after Dan died, was the meme of a quote from Rocky: “Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place, and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to yourContinue reading “Sunshine and Rainbows”